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Wow, so first post in a long time. So, I’ve started my “new” life. I’m finally going to school for something i actually enjoy rather then the government mandated education we receive for 12 long painful years, whilst constantly enduring the many hardships of growing up. New job, new friends, nearly everything has changed; Everything except for the strange feeling in my stomach. Granted, alot of things have definitely gotten better. I’m happier than i was this time last year, that should go without saying, but i cant get rid of the knot in my stomach. That feeling of unhappiness that sometimes lays dormant for hours maybe even days or weeks, and at other times overwhelms my soul. Seclusion is often the result of my negativity, temper and various other imperfections that make me so human. The smile on my face looks out of place in the mirror now. Instead i see something different. More of a shadow of my former self. I’m slowly learning how this world really works. Its disappointing. Work all day and all night until im exhausted down to my core and have little to nothing to show for it. Maybe its been a change in some of my “habits”. At times it seems like my only crutch i can lean on, the one hand that pulls me out of the darkness, when in reality it drags me only deeper into the abyss. Save enough for a bowl pack on a hard day, sometimes two or maybe three. It never ends. As this all unfolds im constantly reminded of having such high hopes for myself as a kid. looking back i really haven’t been able to accomplish alot of the things i would have liked to by now. I’m no scholar, i dont have many skills, and im not really sure where to go after this. I guess thats life though. For now, i’ll remain optimistic, but skeptical in this fucked up world we live in.
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Chicks with good taste in music <3
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